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Remember when I mattered? When you mattered? (Truth is, you still do and always will matter to me) When we mattered?

Now I pick away at my brain matter hoping all the memories will scatter like the ashes of a dying fire.

This isn't the 4th of July and we aren't roasting marshmallows or counting the stars in the sky but I'll take a cigarette to hold off sleep for a little longer.

I would rather flood my bloodstream with nicotine than the thick smoke at the campground and I'm afraid to find you in my dreams once again, because it's starting to take a hold of me and I'm starting to lose hold of reality.

I wanted to read a good book but decided to write one instead and I'm desperately looking for a publisher but who wants to print a story where the words have no meaning?

I'm just a bunch of random thoughts that never fit together like a puzzle missing a few pieces and my lungs are starting to collapse and I'm worried my internal organs are going to fall into a recession.

The numbers don't look good and neither does my BAC as I swallow your words and wash them down with shot after shot of cheap Vodka laced with my insecurities and past mistakes.

Your presence was making itself corrosive to my sanity and self-image so we decided it was better to part ways and I took the Polaroid of our first date and flooded it with gasoline and set it alight.

Our hands melted together then bled like candle wax and I watched us drown into a pool of what was, what could of been, and what never will be again.
yes, i'm still alive and yes i;m still hurting. this is my first piece of real literature in idk, prolly well over a month. i may be making a comeback. too early to tell.

comments please.

these words are my heart. seriously. this is me.
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mamorel Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
That last line was absolutely brilliant, my favortie of the whole piece.
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Ethan-Richards Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
This is...brilliant. The word imagery and the emotion you have in your words are beautiful. Favorite.
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Rhasmaroth Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow... The strength of your words... Just holy shit. This is damn amazing, and it's easy to see you put your all into every syllable in this piece. Keep writing, man, you have a seriously amazing talent.
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NobodyThePerfect Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011   General Artist
Wonderful honesty about this, Glad you wrote it.
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snowraven0 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2011  Student General Artist
Aww, this made me cry you asshole!!
But yeah..I love it too *points to the comments above mine* what they said.
It's really good to see some words comming from you're wonderful corner of DA. Keep it up, keep writing, and dont you ever stop or I WILL fly up and kick your ass! (after you give me your address >.>)
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RedHeadedBitch Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2011   Writer
"The numbers don't look good and neither does my BAC as I swallow your words and wash them down with shot after shot of cheap Vodka laced with my insecurities and past mistakes."

Love it.
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princess-emelina Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2011
"Our hands melted together then bled like candle wax and I watched us drown into a pool of what was, what could of been, and what never will be again."

I adore this. It's so powerful. I'm glad to see you writing again.
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MyLifeIsRiggs Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2011
You have more strength than I ever will. It took me two years to delete pictures of my ex off of my profile..In that sense, I know you'll be fine. I'm sorry life is so hard right now, but this is one beautiful piece of literature. <3
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